I loved weekends. It was because there’s something to look forward to every weekend. But I guess not anymore. It has been a week since the unexpected thing happened. The events have been so fast-paced. I did not expect it to be abrupt. Every thing seems to be in the proper direction when all of a sudden we came into a bump. Clash. It was so traumatic. How could it happen in one single snap of a finger? We’ve only just begun. How could it end so soon?
The past few days have been so grueling. Pails of tears were shed. Loss of appetite was intense. Sleepless nights were a myriad. It was indeed a shattering and devastating after math. How I wish it was easy as pie. How I wish I have the ability to reset my memory to default. How I wish I was only having a nightmare and by the time that I wake up, it will be all fine. But no, this all reality.
It’s all daunting on me now. I know that I am back at square one. I am deviating my focus on other things. I am trying to do the things that I used to do before. I am cheering myself up. I am getting rid of negative vibes. However, I can’t hide the fact that there is still a time of the day when I can’t help thinking of him. I terribly miss the whole him. Although the time that we have spent together is technically short, it’s as if I have known him for long. Living the life without him is like being deprived of my own respiratory system. Clichéd as it may seem but he’s my air to breath. I am gasping of air with the thought that he’s not gonna come back.
The wounds are all fresh. As they say, it takes time. I would not know how many days, weeks, months or years shall pass before I get over. But one thing that I am sure of is that my weekend will never be the same without him. Never.
6 comments:
Things can really be tough and most of the time, unfair leaving us helpless. but that too shall pass, believe me..
as they say,
"Love eventhough it hurts, if it still hurts, love some more..and a little bit more.. then love and love till it hurts no more.." :)
i like that! "...love and love till it hurts no more." thanks so much, karla, for inspiring me. :)
It's so sad nman tlga,minsan aakalain nten ang mga nangyyri ay permanente na pero di pla, parang hiram n sandali lng ang lahat.kaya nga minsan kapag dumating ung time n naging maligaya k s piling ng mahal mo lahat ginagawa nteng unforgetable & memorable because we didnt know what is the next episode, bsta ang alam lng nten at nararamdaman nten ay ung masaya tyo in that very moment...But maybe theres a reason why it happens. Ganun tlga ang LOVE happy and sad, but LIFE must go on...may little prince k nman, He will complete ur everyday life...xenxia na ha kung nag-comment p aq although wala aqng "K" medyo naintig lng aq s blog mo...hhhehee..kaya m yan BE...god bless you:))
ey cholo! nu ka ba! thanks so much for cheering me up. yeah, i know i still have ausch after all. i just wanna vent how i feel. happy ako for you and ate jack. ingat ka lage and uwe ka na!!! :)
ate ruby.. problems are not permanent.. :) just enjoy it because you will learn something from it.. iloveu ate ruby.. keep smiling.. tandaan mo.. mganda tau :) ang ganda ng blog mo and so with the background.. pnu mu gnwa ung picture mo s taas? hahahaa inggit ako wahahaha :P see u ate ruby s badminton ntin (sana mgbgo n ang sked ko)
haze!!! i was only able to read your comment today. whoa! delayed reaction. haha! thank you for being such a good friend though the time that we have spent together physically was just ephemeral. i'm gonna miss you! mwah!
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